Sombongkah?

Person A : Watch movie with me this Saturday, ok?

My answer : I'm working, gonna be damn tired on that day. Sorry.

Person A : Then day after tomorrow, ok?

My answer : ...........................

Person B : What are u doing tonight? Lepak mamak jom.

My answer : Ooops, working night shift till 1am. Next time ya dear.

Person B : Yela sombong.

Person C : I'm heading to your workplace later in the night, lets have dinner.

My answer : Ermmm, not tonight...going out with bf. Sorry.

Person C : Its really hard just to see u.

For several times, I've been rejecting any sort of invitation to any places by lots of friends with various reason. Why? I just doesn't feel like going out. Thats all. I'd love to hang out, I really do. But once I got stressed bout one particular thing; everything gonna be no fun at all. Not that I'm 'sombong'...or maybe I actually am. Am I?

I guess I am sombong.

Which way should I go?

For these few weeks, 1 thing have been lingering around my mind. Should I stay with my current job or should I find another 1.  My heart says that I should just get myself a new job, cause I've been really sad since I got transferred. This new store is not the same with neither the previous nor any other store. There's no team spirit at all. And I'm bored with those who try to flirt with me, it annoys me sometimes.

Yet, I love this job, the environment, the exposure this job has given me is something really hard to get. I learned a lot of things, and I actually building myself here in the company. Even if I wanted to leave this company, which way should I go? I am willing to take chances, but there is part of me that really tries to make sure that I wont fail myself. Help me~please help me~

Should I stay? Should I leave? Where should I go? Where would I start? When is the right time?

Which way should I go???

I'm now a grandma.

Today, I slept at 7am, and that were quite pissed with my two hamsters (Sleepo and Cracker) cause they were making noise with all the biting on the cage. I wake up at 2pm (such a bump) and saw little red things that almost looks like worms. Euwwwww....But, since when that worms have tiny little feet? So I took a closer look and the first thing that pop out from my mouth is "ANAK!!!!!!!!!!!!".

There's total 6 of the little ones. Can't wait to see them grow and name them. Hmmm..what should I name them. I was joking with my housemate that I'm going to name them 1)HOT 2)SPICY 3)TOM 4)YAM 5)SEA 6)FOOD. Gila~

I Miss...

I miss my long hair.

I miss my Umi and my kak Yani.

I miss my braces.

I miss this class.

I miss my years best friends.

I miss the times we dont have even one single fight at all.

I miss my first team.

 

Now, things will never be the same again.

I've changed (a lot).

I guess; everyone does.

Friend o Foe

"Everyday you're seeing the same person, working with the same person. Either you like it or not, that person is your colleague. Like it or not, you still have to let it go." That's the only thing when my partner asked me what would I say in upcoming store meeting.

They some how dislike each other even though they are so called 'A Team'. Why? Does it really matter? Why would you actually care what that person says if you dislike him/her? 

End of month, the day where all managers will be on floor, including me, to do the inventory. This time will be my first inventory in this very new store; and on that prticular day, they are having store meeting. All the managers, all the partners, will gather up and starts to voice up all their thoughts.  And from what I was informed, there's always a fight in the meeting. And I am surely not the type that is really interested on that.  Well, guess it would be interesting enough to be a side dish.

For now, everything seems to be getting better for me, starting to break all the ice between me and my new colleagues. Yet miss the old ones so much!

My pain, my medicine

My fear came back to me. Early of Dec 2010, i had a surgery and now the wound is contiminated that causes pain, swollen and abcess. That yesterday morning went to see my surgical doctor, and today I mc and back to the mode; '4 times a day, every 6 hours, 4 capsules each time' . This is not fun, not fun at all.

Today felt so empty inside. Feel like I had nothing. I dunno why, keep thinking bout things in my life and what will be happening in few years time. Thank God with all that I had now. My family, my love, my friends, my job, my car. May everything will be alright, and may this pain I'm having will be gone. Amin.

S.T.U.P.I.D

You, are now stepping into my teritory.
You, are now staying in my house for free.
You, are now using my things without asking any courtesy permission.
And now you are giving all me instructions, to obey all of your ridiculous shit.

For God sake, u are staying here for free and that I did not ask you to pay anything, who the hell do u think u are???? Sticking that fucking pink sticker on your fucking things in MY fucking fridge??? .S.T.U.P.I.D. Only speak to me when you hand me rental money, the utilities bill, deal??

S.T.U.P.I.D.B.I.T.C.H