Someone to talk to

Sometimes I at the point where I have no one to talk to, to consult to, to hang on to. I'm not alone, I've got a boyfriend, I've got friends, I've got family. But I don't have anyone to talk  to about my problem, my secrets, everything. 

Easier said than done, "just make boyfriend as your best friend". How many of you actually told your boyfriend EVERYTHING??. Do you dare to tell them last night you had a dream about your ex-boyfriend and suddenly you feel that you wanna call her. How can you tell that to your boyfriend without making her freak out? HOW? 

If I got any problem that I'm facing with my boyfriend, I am not gonna tell the problem to any of my friend, i need someone that I can really trust. That would listen to my problem without making any judgement.

My family? They are superb, I love them so much, and they  dear me so much. But I can't tell them the fact about who am I, what kind of lifestyle I'm having "behind the scene". I am fake in front of them, but my love to them, its true.

I really need someone to talk to..NOW.