A place call HOME

My 3 years in KL; rented in 3 different house, worked in 2 different place before. My first apartment was in Pandan Perdana, Ampang. At that point, I was working as a Asst.Manager in a Japanese Restaurant. It lasted about 4 month. It was tough; both job and the house? Why? Of course there was nothing easy about the job. But drama in my house is just too much. I'm living with other 5 girls. If a girl is a mess, can you imagine facing 5 of them? Gosh~ 

Then quit my job, and pursue as a Supervisor in a well-known F&B company. Travelled to few stores in The Gardens, Mid Valley and Bangsar. It was tough that you gave your all to your job but no once sees it. But I made it for a year plus. And at the same time, I moved to a flat house in Pandan Indah. No way near to my working area. I am not a really friendly type of girl. I don't really communicate with my housemates. I don't really know her that much,but towards the end of the 1year-contract of the house, we became quite close.

Then we(me and housemates) moved to another house.  We got closer and closer, then become bestfriends. I'm still in the same position, same company when I first move.Then I switched my job to a call-centre. So relieved that I'm working 9AM to 6PM daily, and well-paid. Alhamdulillah, the company sees what I'm capable of and appreciate it. 

Sound like everything is going so well, isn't it? I guess the grass is't always greener on the other side. That freaking so-called housemate back-stabbed me and it is not something that I would forgive. 

So I moved out to a condo (finally, I can afford 1), and lived with my baby :) I may not know how things gonna turn out in the future. I am praying for the best in my life and striving for it. 

A glimpse of my new condo.  

How Much "Likes" Do you Have In Real Life

One person can be extremely famous, most likeable in Facebook, Twitter, Blog; any type of social network there exists or was. We the people unlikely like them, not recognized at all do admire those people. Sometime envy does develops. 

How many of us thought of meeting these people in real life. I used too, and I actually did. It disappoints me when I found out that he/she is totally different from what they describe themselves (in the social network). I'd prefer to admire a real person, rather than an imaginary person. 

When it comes to the truth that they are not the person they claim to be, I guess I'm doing good in my own life. My facebook status "likes" never reaches 10, yet in real life I am not that bad. I don't have "likes", instead, I've got "love"s.

And I love them too :)

Bila Dia Keluar Menoreh

Sunyi sangat, she's so busy with her work. I'm working office hours basis, dia pulak shift basis. Disebabkan dia newbie, dia kerja 1PM to 10PM daily. So basically we are talking to each other every morning, and every night before sleep. Daily routines? I has been the same...

6:30AM   : I woke up, bathed, get dressed

7:30AM   : Woke her up, and she sent me to work

1:00PM   : She went to work

7:00PM   : Home, and I'll be buying raw ingredients to cook

8:30PM   : Dinner ready, I'll be eating alone by myself, and then watch tv

10:30PM : She'd  be home, she will be having the dinner I cooked

11:30PM : In bed, and telling each other how was our day

I'm not bored of my life with her, its just that I really wish we could have more time together...I miss U baby...

I Cook Okay.

My daily routines has been the same lately. Wake up 6:30AM..hhhmm, 7AM actually. Working from 9AM to 6PM. I'll reach home about 7PM. And I have filling my night time with cooking. Yeah~I cook, and turn out not bad. I do admit I can't cook famous or complicated dishes, I cook simple dishes that I could think of. I am learning, I do earn an A for the effort :). So today I'm posting about my cooking experiment. Cooking can be fun :)

Campbell's Chicken Soup, Crunchy Butter Bread and Chicken Cheese Sausage.

Megi Goreng + Halfcooked Mr. Star Egg

Ada banyaaaaakkkk lagi, will be coming soon. Enjoy your meal :)

Bicycle, I Can't Remember How To Cycle One Anymore..

Bicycle. I haven't cycle one for a long long long time, I once learnt, but then I stop and yeah, I stopped.   I really don't think I able to cycle anymore, not that I can't move my leg or what, I don't think I can balance myself when I'm on it. 

Great, not only I can't swim, I am now can't cycle. More of the can't list...

Old Stuff

Earlier today in office, me and my officemates were talking about things that we used when we were young. Which I think most of the kids nowadays may not have the chance to know what is it. Don't have the pictures because the item now is in Penang, so I goggled and manage to have the pictures.


Amazing how time flies really fast, I was so young when I saw an  old iron in my mum's cabinet of her precious collection. 

The sweetest memory when I stayed with my late grandmother during school break, we made homemade "mee kuning" using this :

During weekends, I would stays in my Mak Lang's house and she would cook delicious meal, I love to see her use these which I of course was not allowed to use it; to avoid injury.

Old times, how I missed them so much. :)

Memasak

Ingat senang ke memasak ni? It is easy for those who used to do the cooking in their kitchen. But for me? I grew up in a environment of my breakfast, brunch, lunch, dinner, supper are ready cooked dish, all bought by my mum. She's a hardworking mum, don't really have time to cook. She;s a very good cook, its proves when she cook for us during weekends, dish cooked by a loving mum, yummy! But her daughters all to lazy to help her on that. So I don't COOK. Now since I am now living in my own house, so sometimes I miss homecooked meal, which makes me feel like learning to cook. And I'm facing several problem while learning.

The Preparation : I'm a linear person, everything in my life has to be in order, systematic. While preparing all the needed ingredients, it may took me hours because I would be really particular on the hygiene while washing; the size of the cut ingredients must be the same; everything MUST BE THE WAY I WANT THEM TO BE.

Lighting the Stove and Facing the Hot Oil : Just trying to get the stove light up could cause me screaming as if something gonna blow up. Once I got the stove up, the pan, heat the oil, and its now time for the next step. Aku paling takut kalau minyak masak yang sedang panas splashes towards my face. So I'll do the best to avoid myself from hurting.

Adding the "Garam Secukup Rasa" : F!. Aku dari dulu ada masalah deria rasa, its either going to be tasteless or its going to be too salty (lori garam tumpah dalam kuali). Hadoii.. I'm hopeless.

The Result : The dish gonna be either burnt or looks totally fine but does not taste like a food. 

But I am not gonna give up. I'll keep on learning, trying until I succeed! Next dish, beef burger!

Someone to talk to

Sometimes I at the point where I have no one to talk to, to consult to, to hang on to. I'm not alone, I've got a boyfriend, I've got friends, I've got family. But I don't have anyone to talk  to about my problem, my secrets, everything. 

Easier said than done, "just make boyfriend as your best friend". How many of you actually told your boyfriend EVERYTHING??. Do you dare to tell them last night you had a dream about your ex-boyfriend and suddenly you feel that you wanna call her. How can you tell that to your boyfriend without making her freak out? HOW? 

If I got any problem that I'm facing with my boyfriend, I am not gonna tell the problem to any of my friend, i need someone that I can really trust. That would listen to my problem without making any judgement.

My family? They are superb, I love them so much, and they  dear me so much. But I can't tell them the fact about who am I, what kind of lifestyle I'm having "behind the scene". I am fake in front of them, but my love to them, its true.

I really need someone to talk to..NOW.

Me and list of food

Something about we, Malaysians; always talk, think and unable to resist the tempting delicious food. Tengah makan breakfast dah fikir what shall they have for lunch or even dinner. No matter malay, indian or chinese cuisine, every taste buds of single individual have different preferences, and some don't mind travel for their favourite dish. And of course, no one can beat the taste of dish prepared by mum! The taste of  LOVE.

Me myself, won't say no if anyone invite me to try something new in any restaurant or stall. The fun of travelling and the joy of trying something u never had before, plus the excitement if that dish is extremely superb! One of the reason why I love food so much is maybe because I'm from Penang, and my mum appreciate delicacies of cuisine too, and it is not easy to find dish similar to Penang's here in KL. 

List of my favourite food? Just by naming it,it could take me whole night. Hot and spicy, cold, soups, dry fried, meat, seafood, vege; I would never say no....wait, I do have list of food which I will not try to consume : Tapai, and Siput Sedut...euww.. As for my top favourite dish list : Tomyam Putih, any dishes of Crab; wait2, double Chicken Burger is my top favourite too, same goes with roasted meat. Gosh~going with the listings, everything is so mouth watering. I'd better go now. Enjoy your meal :)

My mum preparing our own steamboat

Broken Hearted

Last night I had dinner wit my lovely ex-boss, Fiz. She was a very dear boss, and know a very good friend of mine. The last time we met, it was back in Sept 2011 if I'm not mistaken, and the last picture we took together was end year of  2010. Rambut pun panjang lagi masa tu. Gosh I miss the environment of me and her working together,and how she always treat me for lunch (jimat duit..hahaha). 

Back to the dinner last night. We shared lot of stories. She's having personal problem, which the stress really shows through her expression. Listening to her stories,she make me feel the pain of loosing someone that u cared so much. 

Recently aku rasa rindu pada orang-orang yang pernah ada dalam hidup aku, of course tak semua relationship gonna end with happy ending and resulted we no longer contact each other. And aku teringat pun bukan sebab sayang lagi, cuma they used to be the person that make me feel the happiness and the pain.

There is someone that I really felt the pain of loosing her. Me and her was not in a serious relationship, but the pain was something that I would never wanna experience again. I hate the pain of broken  heart.

Rasa macam gloomy je hati ni...

Changes

I have just deleted my MySpace. I can't even remember when was the last time I actually logged to that page. Used to be known as the sweet smiling Ily Blueberry in MySpace,  and now somehow that sweet girl don't really exist anymore. 

I'm no longer a quiet, shy person I used to be. Experience in F&B actually makes me a very talkative person. And know I am paid to talk. So I talk a lot now. Sometimes the words that I have said may hurt people's feelings.


I have as well discovered a very new hobby : Travel for Food :)

So I have changed a lot, but my feelings,my love towards my precious sayang always stays with me. 

People change a lot, according and adapting their environment. I did.. Did u?

Nak balik awal boleh???

Today, aku bangun agak awal dari biasa, 1petang...(1pm tu kategori bangun awal kah?). Sebab aku kena masuk keje awal sikit. Shift closing selalunya pukul 5petang, tapi disebabkan manager pagi nak balik awal, so aku sebagai manager malam kena masuk awal.  Aku tak kisah sebab aku pun pernah buat macam tu. 

Call closing manager, and then cakap "I kena balik awal lah,*****".

atau pun call opening manager : "I masuk lambat sikit tau, *****".

Star banyak2 tu kononnya alasan balik awal. Alasan ni boleh jadi macam2. Contoh :

1) Ada BBQ parti ka rumah nenek.

2) Kena tolong pakcik buka gerai pasar malam.

3) Kena pegi jumpa dentist.

4) Pickup nephew kat kindergarten.

5) Petang ni I naik bas balik Penang.

6) Sebab I nak bali awal lah~

So, alasan sentiasa ada. Bak kata orang dulu2, nak seribu daya, tak nak seribu dalih. Whatever alasan yang aku bagi, of course la make sense, menipu pun kena pandai jugak. Tapi......jangan selalu=)

Sombongkah?

Person A : Watch movie with me this Saturday, ok?

My answer : I'm working, gonna be damn tired on that day. Sorry.

Person A : Then day after tomorrow, ok?

My answer : ...........................

Person B : What are u doing tonight? Lepak mamak jom.

My answer : Ooops, working night shift till 1am. Next time ya dear.

Person B : Yela sombong.

Person C : I'm heading to your workplace later in the night, lets have dinner.

My answer : Ermmm, not tonight...going out with bf. Sorry.

Person C : Its really hard just to see u.

For several times, I've been rejecting any sort of invitation to any places by lots of friends with various reason. Why? I just doesn't feel like going out. Thats all. I'd love to hang out, I really do. But once I got stressed bout one particular thing; everything gonna be no fun at all. Not that I'm 'sombong'...or maybe I actually am. Am I?

I guess I am sombong.

Which way should I go?

For these few weeks, 1 thing have been lingering around my mind. Should I stay with my current job or should I find another 1.  My heart says that I should just get myself a new job, cause I've been really sad since I got transferred. This new store is not the same with neither the previous nor any other store. There's no team spirit at all. And I'm bored with those who try to flirt with me, it annoys me sometimes.

Yet, I love this job, the environment, the exposure this job has given me is something really hard to get. I learned a lot of things, and I actually building myself here in the company. Even if I wanted to leave this company, which way should I go? I am willing to take chances, but there is part of me that really tries to make sure that I wont fail myself. Help me~please help me~

Should I stay? Should I leave? Where should I go? Where would I start? When is the right time?

Which way should I go???

I'm now a grandma.

Today, I slept at 7am, and that were quite pissed with my two hamsters (Sleepo and Cracker) cause they were making noise with all the biting on the cage. I wake up at 2pm (such a bump) and saw little red things that almost looks like worms. Euwwwww....But, since when that worms have tiny little feet? So I took a closer look and the first thing that pop out from my mouth is "ANAK!!!!!!!!!!!!".

There's total 6 of the little ones. Can't wait to see them grow and name them. Hmmm..what should I name them. I was joking with my housemate that I'm going to name them 1)HOT 2)SPICY 3)TOM 4)YAM 5)SEA 6)FOOD. Gila~

I Miss...

I miss my long hair.

I miss my Umi and my kak Yani.

I miss my braces.

I miss this class.

I miss my years best friends.

I miss the times we dont have even one single fight at all.

I miss my first team.

 

Now, things will never be the same again.

I've changed (a lot).

I guess; everyone does.

Friend o Foe

"Everyday you're seeing the same person, working with the same person. Either you like it or not, that person is your colleague. Like it or not, you still have to let it go." That's the only thing when my partner asked me what would I say in upcoming store meeting.

They some how dislike each other even though they are so called 'A Team'. Why? Does it really matter? Why would you actually care what that person says if you dislike him/her? 

End of month, the day where all managers will be on floor, including me, to do the inventory. This time will be my first inventory in this very new store; and on that prticular day, they are having store meeting. All the managers, all the partners, will gather up and starts to voice up all their thoughts.  And from what I was informed, there's always a fight in the meeting. And I am surely not the type that is really interested on that.  Well, guess it would be interesting enough to be a side dish.

For now, everything seems to be getting better for me, starting to break all the ice between me and my new colleagues. Yet miss the old ones so much!

My pain, my medicine

My fear came back to me. Early of Dec 2010, i had a surgery and now the wound is contiminated that causes pain, swollen and abcess. That yesterday morning went to see my surgical doctor, and today I mc and back to the mode; '4 times a day, every 6 hours, 4 capsules each time' . This is not fun, not fun at all.

Today felt so empty inside. Feel like I had nothing. I dunno why, keep thinking bout things in my life and what will be happening in few years time. Thank God with all that I had now. My family, my love, my friends, my job, my car. May everything will be alright, and may this pain I'm having will be gone. Amin.

S.T.U.P.I.D

You, are now stepping into my teritory.
You, are now staying in my house for free.
You, are now using my things without asking any courtesy permission.
And now you are giving all me instructions, to obey all of your ridiculous shit.

For God sake, u are staying here for free and that I did not ask you to pay anything, who the hell do u think u are???? Sticking that fucking pink sticker on your fucking things in MY fucking fridge??? .S.T.U.P.I.D. Only speak to me when you hand me rental money, the utilities bill, deal??

S.T.U.P.I.D.B.I.T.C.H

What a day....

Yesterday, hangout dengan my yayunx, my madu anne, addy, wani + her brother, eisya and ajim. It was fun, really2 fun.  Lame tak hangout macam tu. Tapi tak lame, aku kne gi keje. They continue with their event and I'm off to work.

Puppy love. Somehow someone some sort of had a crush on me that makes me feel so weird. When a young teenager fell in love with someone that older (which is me), it gives me that creepy feeling. Yet, the way he treated me, I actually like it.  Bought me cheese cake that he sees me so stressed up. Jarang dapat layanan macam tu, tapi benda macam tu tak akan tahan lama, puppy love la katakan. I'm still holding on to my only yayunx; and that today is our 1year6month anniversary. Sayang kamu=)

Kawan2 baek aku datang serbu store, and its not actually a good timing to do that cause I've got a lot of thing to do tonight. I miss them, I really do but its just not at the right moment. They love me that we've known each other for years and I really thanked them for that.  Like they said, we are no longer in childhood 'happy time', each of us have our own responsibility. When they left, somehow I missed them so much. All 3 of them are going to do really great in their life. Hope I'll be the same, Amin.